This week has helped me come to some realizations about myself. All things considering, I knew about it before, but verbalizing it this week to some friends made it real for me. There were still some epiphanies that came out of the woodwork I had never thought of, however.
I've lost touch with who I am as a person (only in some respects) and I need to fix it. I've been acting out of character, which should have raised a red flag long ago. I know why I'm acting the way I am, but that doesn't justify it at all.
It basically comes down to getting more comfortable with myself and my situation. I think I've been getting caught up in the future a bit more than I usually do and I need to refocus on the present. I need to utilize my time more wisely and concentrate on my overall well-being.
Another part of it could be concentrating on the loved ones in my life. For whatever reason, the last month was a hurricane of emotions in the relationships department. I'm not the victim of it, by any means. I don't know what I would be in this metaphor. The weatherman? The Red Cross? A little bit of both?
I want everyone I care about to be content in their life situations. I need to find balance of being an emotionally supportive friend and emotionally supporting myself all at once. It's something I'm more than happy do. I need to lend a shoulder, an ear, any and all parts of myself as a friend to my friends, because I know they would do the same. I also need to realize the advice I'm dishing out is advice I need to take myself.
As I've been encouraging my friends to do what makes them happiest, I need to do the same for myself.
